harlo... this time i really dun noe wad to do already... i so wanna start drinking again... i dun noe... so wanna be drunk again... i wanna do something else too... something tat im so not suppose to do... but i cant even get it... sick... my gor can only help me when he is 18 tat is like few months to go... i dun wanna wait till aug lar... sick man... dun noe who else i can find to get for me... arh!!! fuck man... and i so dun noe wad to do already... i dun noe wad u wan anymore... even i dun go to sch it oso doesnt matter... it doesnt make a difference... my brain is so not working properly already... i totally dun noe wad im doin... doin noe wad im saeing... fuck man... someone please help me... im havin werid dreams... i dun noe y... n i so dun feel like goin to sch tml... i dun wan to go sch anymore... i wanna die... i dun wan to live already... im tired... i dun noe y im always the one finding u... haizx.. i dun noe already.. sian... just hope there is no tml...
the only one i want.