03. i only want to be with you

harlo... yay!!!...camp is at last over... it was fun though something happen... i only didnt do one activity... but the first dae of activity was so so so fun... yup... we did flyin fox... river-crossing... water confidence... white water rafting... canopy walkin... ear cave exploring[bats cave]... n rappid-shooting... all was fun... except the rappid-shooting... coz i didnt do it... haha... due to something... haha... we had to jump off a rock into the currents for wate confindence... so fun lar... than for the water rafting... so irritating... coz of the capsize drill... i lost one of my shoes during the capsize drill... hump... but when we were at the rapids... it was so fun... the last rapid was the most exciting de... than the bats cave... haha... all the bats were so small... i think they were baby bats... lol... kinda of tiring too... hav to like climb all the way... haha... canopy walking...hmm... kinda ok lar... coz i was kind of afraid of heights... lol... conclusion... the camp is fun... haha... even though of the long rides to the place... lol... yup... n todae is jennifer's birthdae... happy birthdae to u... haha...

now for not camp stuff... emotions r all mixed yup... wrong is just cant get them rite... i oso dun noe wads goin on between us... no idea at all... is like we dun really tok to each other anymore... is like sort of u hav lesser time for me... maybe me too... to listen to u... but we dun even see each other... n when we see each other... sometimes we act as if we nv saw each other... i noe u hav new gd frens too... haizx... just dun noe was with us already... perhaps u r kind of close with him... so somethinhgs i dun noe whether i should tell u anot... is not i dun wan to tell u... i oso hav a loot of problems... i dun noe who to tell... or wad... in the night cryin n telling my tedy bear bout my problems... i dun wan to waste ure time too... u hav other more... much much more important stuff to do than to listen to me tokin rubbish... coz we r different... we hav diff minds... i just dun noe wad to do... i noe tat there r times tat im not there for u... but there r oso times tat u r not there for me... but wad else can i do... just look happy n let everything pass... forget bout everything???... smile at everything... even though it hurts so much... i just wan to hide everything under tat smile... yes i noe i hav change... i dun wan too... but under circumfrince... i hav too... i hav no choice anymore... there is many thing tat i cant make choices... there is just only one path for me... i hav to leave things as they r... haizx...

the only one i want.